challenges

i found there are lots of challenges for me
since i graduate for my nursing school
i really feel stress and depress at times
but i feel like what i can do is just to wait
but i don't like waiting
for me it is a time wasting act
seriously don't like to wait
just like recently
there's another challenges for me
i though i can go Sg by May
but it seems things doesn't go what i was thinking
really helpless and speechless
couldn't express what is my difficulty now
searching for God's guidance
many of them tell me that to chill and relax
but there are no peace in my heart
i dunno this is my mind problem or what
mentally, financially not allow me to jobless
not even a month
thus i felt uneasy
i knew there are lots of family and friends are supporting me physically and emotionally
i really appreciate it
when things doesn't go as what i expecting
i think the only one i can believe is God

Kuala Lumpur Few Days Trip

throwback

after my last day in Fatimah

i had decided to go KL around with my mom

for fews purpose

:my aunty 40th wedding anniversary

:my mom so long time never go kl gathering with her sisters

:i wanna meet up my nurses friend and church friends there before i left to SG

:CHCKL have Easter Day Production ( WHITE AS SNOW )

so on 16th after my last night

i drove there with my mom

so amaze to be a driver on north-south highway

i enjoyed it very much

been in kl i just want to relax

so no hurry no rush

accompany my mom  for the first 3days in selayang

my cousin have brought us to eat bear paw

nice snacks even my mom also give a LIKE

on Friday night we went my aunty anniversary 

having steamboat at my cousin shop

on Saturday

i drove to subang find my friends

i went to the prodcution

a touch drama talking about resurrection of Jesus and God's healing 

it has make my day meaningful

after that

i went have dinner with crystal and brandon in JOJO PAN MEE

long time never eat this

missed it so much

randomly

i able sing k outing with my nurses friends from 12mn to 3mn

what a day

thanks for accompany me during my visit there

even some of them were just off from work

on Sunday

i able to have a little catch up my my X-cellgroup leader and cell memebers

Ian, Chia Huey

Xin Hui, Brandon and Sebrina

you guys and girls still my spiritual family ever

really appreciate ur mentally support and encouragement for my

On Monday

i drove back to selayang and subsequently we back to ipoh again and say goodbye to kl

I realized i have lots of friends

but hardly found one is really understands and knows me well

i appreciate everyone of you walking through my life

leaving a footprint in my heart

sorry to say some of you i couldnt remember your name and your face

but thank you if you still remember me as your friend

In a week time

i'm gonna go to SG to start my new life there

not a new career but it's a new environment and challenges

i will face a different one

i hope it is a turning point for me

i wouldn't want to be a person who never stepping out of my comfort zone

keep growing and growing

so this is life

if talking about nursing

if u ask me will you be a nurse for lifetime?

i will ask NO

but i think i need something or somebody give me some mind and thoughts

I dunno why
recently i thought of u
made me feel sad
i thought i was walking out of the shadow
but it seems i didn't
i felt the sadness, the disappointment,the heartbroken
i felt that lost hope
i wonder how are you recently
i think u are doing good
without me
i thought i am too
without u
but partially it is
how could i delete all those memories?
how could i imagine u never been it my life
how could i say that u never play an important role in my life
all these have already become a past tense
we will never getting back together, never ever