27th - pay day

wow
for so long i have waited
finally wait until end of this month
i was so excited for today
because it is PAY DAY
because of this salary
i no need to loan money from others
i have enough money to go singapore

another things i so happy to this end of this month
because i'm going to tender my resignation letter tomorrow
woohoo
i have waited so long for tomorrow
and i gonna leave soon

but one thing which i feel bad about end of this month is
31st i got one presentation
so long never do presentation
and i haven't get myself ready for this assignment and presentation
haiz

anyway
i'm gonna plan better for this salary
no waste anymore

争吵

又来了

差不多天天都需要面对这样的情况

我真的很累了

对于那个废材

我根本不当一回事

因为我已经看透他了

他说的什么对于我来说已经不重要

你说得对

不要因为这样的人生气伤身体

但我觉得这句话给你自己听最好

但为什么每当牵扯到你和他之间的问题

我就会大发脾气？

因为这些事情这些情况从我出去读书到现在

都是发生同样的东西

我真的听累了

也劝累了

那么多年了

你说得也只是纸上谈兵

你说我能不烦吗？

说得出就得做得到

要不然说的都是废话

不是吗？

对于他说的东西

我根本就不在意

所以他再说什么无稽的废话

我都无动于衷

因为我根本不在乎他

而你

为什么我会生气会发脾气

因为我在乎的只有你

我不想你受苦难过

但你却每每挖的坑自己跳进去

受伤了

就跑来和我哭诉

有什么意思？

我已经叫你走了

别理这个人了

你有那一次是会听我劝的？

面对了那么久

还看不清吗？

我早就看透了

When u nearly die

recently was so tired
just finished my night shift
and thanks God i got my 2 days off
and I'm still surviving now

feel so bad and feel sorry to my patient
that was my first night shift
was taking care one critically ill lady
when i see her was suffering there and yet the doctor was doing blunt to her
stupid treatment
never been seen a doctor's treatment got such poor treatment before
seriously wanna beat that stupid doctor
i'll always remember his name
will never forget his name!!
if that patient can survive, then ok
if touchwood didn't, your sin will be there

talking back
after that first night shift
i was driving back home early in the morning
and i nearly met a bad accident
bloody hell
shocked and still can feel the fear now
i fall asleep while driving
just a road outside my taman
when in a second when i woke up
my eyes saw a big lorry coming in front of me
and i quickly turn my steering
and i escape from going to see God Father
really thanks for God's protection
Amen
all glories goes to His Name

Life is like that
you will never know when is your last second living in this earth
don't take thing for granted
cherish every moment in your life
appreciate people surrounding you no matter bad or good
hold a thankful heart for every things that happen into your life
by the time you left this world
you have no regrets

Matta Fair

I have a target which is travel at least one country in a year
I know this is hard but i will work it out too
nothing is impossible

randomly saw kim shared a web regarding matta fair
so curious about that
really wanna go travel with friends and family
application of leave is my first problem
i heading off to Singapore soon in next april
start to work there about may
6 months probations are not allow to apply leave
until after 6 months only i can start to take leave
plans all postponed
money wise is another problem
i'm sure that i can save money in Singapore
but i have a lot of liabilities too
every month i'm gonna send money back to malaysia for my car my insu my ptptn loan and my tv
gosh!!
stress man..
some more before i off to Singapore i need money too
borrow from people one i have to pay back
one word to describe : sigh

planning to go china with friend but seems the fees is not cheap
planning to go korean or cruise with mummy next year, this i must work it out
alot of country i want to travel
anyway
i give myself 6 months to clear off all these problems
i know i can do it!!

GahYao Erica!!

A day full of tiredness but relax after

Today I was morning shift
and I feel suck and tired with my patient keep on BO watery stool
and I have to change her whole bedsheet overall again
Ng feeding 3 hourly
ICP monitoring
another patient is on ventilator support
blood investigation
fluids challenge
inotropes support
blood transfusion
whole shift, I only have time to carried out doctors treatment but no time for my nursing report
somemore others patients come in critically ill
ECG changes AF VT
doing cardiac revertion
prepare for intubation
bla bla bla...
no time for break no time for sips of water and no time to PEE
with the bladder full running up and down
THIS CALLED NURSES LIFE
but luckily I finished all my work on time and pass so call perfectly to next shift

After all the tiredness
I went to a body massage as scheduled before with my friend
hoo...
time for relaxing
really worth for RM38
all the tiredness gone
charge myself for tomorrow double shift

Having a great time with buddy
sharing with each other
listen to each other
and i realize how important a friendship play a role in my life
i will never get alone
but i must learn how to get independent
sometimes
friends are not with u all the time
sometimes
I still need a time for myself alone
but still trying into it
adapting myself to walk alone watch alone eat alone and drink alone

after whole day tiredness
and i'm sorry to say that i only bath early in the morning until i came back home
and i really cannot tahan the oily body oily face oily hair
bath and having my facial mask before my bedtime
i'm young but yet i'm still getting older
the face is to cari makan one
haha
22years old, if i don't keep it now? when else i can keep?

Good night
ILJ

回不了的过去

现实的社会

已经慢慢的将人的当初思想侵蚀

我

永远都回不了那年的我

年龄的增长

心态的改变

发现自己已经改变不少

我还是那时的我吗？

已经不是了

再也不是

明白人，是会改变的

但那年你的心还保留着吗？

谁懂？或许你自己也不清楚了

我，也不懂了